It’s official. The training to become a Certified Mindfulness Meditation Teacher has begun. I signed up for the program almost a year ago, and now that it’s started, the seeds of self-doubt are creeping in.
The certification process takes two years, and teaching is the core of the second year of the training. Teaching means I need students, which means I need to take my personal and admittedly private meditation practices which have admittedly changed who I am, and how I am, and share them with others. It’s making myself vulnerable and open to a population outside of my self-imposed, insulated bubble of accepting friends and family. It’s exposure and I don’t know if I’m ready. In fact, it’s more than that, I know that I am not ready. But I have a year of training to get there.
And what I also already know is that the foundational practice of Mindfulness is certainly worthy of sharing with strangers, if not the world. A bird is often used to describe its meaning. Like a bird, Mindfulness has two wings:
- Understanding – which means being present. Observing what’s around and what’s within. It means recognizing what shows up when we quiet the incessant, internal chatter and sit in silence.
- Love and Compassion – means allowing what is to be. It means saying I see you [doubt, hurt, fear, shame, sadness, self-posturing, self-importing], can I accept you and love and forgive you and just allow you to be with me for this moment. Maybe I don’t like it, but can we just start with acknowledging it, knowing we are an evolving being who with awareness and intention, can change.
With mindfulness, which is an active process, there is mindful presence, and then there is a mindful response. Like a bird which needs both wings to fly, Mindfulness requires both presence and action to create movement. Movement like flying, goes on to take various forms of freedom.
I’m excited to learn more and share more. And perhaps, if you will allow, I can begin my teaching with you.
With loving gratitudes,